Thursday, May 6, 2010

Quarter-life Crisis

…. is a psychological term for the phase after adolescence, usually from ages 21-30. some symptoms:

1. Feeling not good about your job.

2. Frustration with relationships.

3. Insecurity about life goals.

4. Nostalgia for school.

5. A sense that everyone is better than you.

Furthermore, this stage occurs shortly after young, educated professionals enter the “real world”, and then they realize that it is tougher, meaner and very much unforgiving…

-I CAN RELATE!!!!!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

me

i love to laugh... I love to be with people whom i can converse with. I love people who listen. When i look at fashion magazines, the first thing i look at are the eyes of the model, coz i study how the makeup was done! Haha! I love music. It keeps me alive and it pulsates in every artery and vein of my body... I easily cry over mushy stuff and films... I also easily cry seeing people suffer. I'm a tripper. I love to make fun of myself sometimes. I love reading books and other informative stuff. I still don't know how to ride a bike, for i can only maneuvre it for about 15 meters. Too bad. Haha. I love to twit! I love eating. I analyze how recipes are done coz i don't know much about cooking although i'm dying to get my hands on the kitchen. I appreciate little things like people showing you kindness, a smile, a hug or a kiss. I love dressing up. I wanna learn photography... I'm afraid of heights! Acrophobia forever. Shopping is one of my guilty pleasures. I love chocolates, especially Cadbury, though any chocolate will do. Basta chocolate! I love tequila. I'm allergic to crabs. When i sneeze, i sneeze a lot! I used to have this unusual talent of effortlessly sticking a pencil under my nose, but since i started sporting braces, i can't do it anymore... I love EDT's. =) i love smelling good. I love putting on makeup though sometimes i appreciate the beauty that lies behind every unpainted face. I love to write... I'm a very noisy person. But i can keep your secrets... I swear i am an appreciative person. I love discovering things. I believe that God lies behind every great masterpiece in this world. And i believe i've already blabbed too much. Haha! Till the next edition! =)

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Blessings



December 18 2007
Today was really fun, two Christmas parties in one night... I was somehow trying to get over the trauma of an issue that has been a word of mouth by people for weeks... :( I couldn’t even eat well because of worrying too much. I really believe that when something great happens in your life, there will always be something very sad that will eventually happen in your life and this is it. After the blessings such as the hosting job, the commended music video, getting to watch the Madrigals perform again, meeting celebrity friends such as Abner Mercado and Bruce of the Philippine Male Singers and many others comes a very groundbreaking judgment and a very depressing thought. I feel so down that the only remedy I have is the assurance from God, the hug of a friend and laughter that is best shared with gay friends.
Let’s start off with what has happened the other night, I met the staff and crew of the Correspondents (sans Mr. Abner Mercado) last December 16. I assisted them because they were shooting a segment for The Correspondents here in Vigan entitled “pasko ng Vigan” or something like that. We went to see the torch and lantern parade wherein the beautiful lanterns made of indigenous materials paraded from the city hall to the Quezon Avenue to the Calle Crisologo. Then after that I had some time to chat with Janice Cortez, who happens to share the same interests with me, like having the desire to become a member of the Philippine Madrigal Singers. So we decided to watch their concert at the Calle Crisologo. The repertoire was composed of some songs that were sung here last March and Christmas songs. The members who came here were just half of the full madrigal choir because the others were also performing in manila that time. As always, the Madrigals have showcased their best. It was really hard for me leaving the show in the last two songs because my friends are already hungry that time... I saw some friends who also watched the show. I sacrificed the time i was supposed to allot for the choir practice with the gays... I was already suffering from hoarse voice from that moment on to date.
December 17. Time to shake your booty. We were scheduled to have our practice for the choreography of our songs, Mr. Allan Villocino, the choreographer came over to Vigan all the way from Baguio to rehearse us in preparation for the performance on Friday, June 21 wherein we will be performing during the choir competition. Earlier that day, we saw the Philippine Male Singers perform at the Launching of the Provincial Gov’t of the Nutrition and feeding program, sponsored by the Madrigal Foundation. They were really good, they also sang the Circle of Life, and they were really good because their version ws much longer. And they did a very wonderful cover of Pretty Woman.
Later that night, it was already time for me to rehearse the gay choir. I barely had my voice that time. We were also waiting for Mr. Abner Mercado to arrive from manila because we’ll be having dinner with him. He arrived at around 10: 3o PM. So we decided to stop rehearsing. They also needed people to act as extras, and i was among those who were convinced to wear the Abel Filipiniana. I was really hesitant that time because I’m not in the mood to dress up until i finally gave in. I looked really funny in my outfit!~ Imagine having really messy hair and already-smudged-makeup, frog like voice, and wearing a filipiniana that doesn’t even fit me well so it was just folded at the back because the zipper wont close and i was even wearing sneakers and striped socks in black and white! Hahaha! Oh no... I looked really dreadful. So i just managed to somehow carry the gown because i already looked like a disaster! We were asked to be included in the shoot for the plug, we were at the background pretending to be fixing the table and preparing food while in those filipiniana costumes. It was really very funny because Sir Abner was trying to memorize the Naimbag nga Pascua yo amin ken naragsak a Baro a Taw-en... Hahaha, he even said, “Naragsak a Baro” and we were all laughing. He wasn’t that serious after all, I mean he looked very strict and in his episodes, he looked very formal. But behind the scenes, he’s a very admirable, down-to-earth man with great intelligence. He interviewed me about the food and i wasn’t prepared for that really. I was used to being exposed on camera (thanks to Wakeup Ilocos), but i was starstruck and i was disoriented. Hahaha! I can’t even remember the words I've said if all these are accurate enough. Then after that, we shared dinner in filipiniana costumes. The members of the gay choir acted out as no other than the extras. They were there in gowns and barongs, one of them looked like the mayor, the other looked like Crispin or Basilio from Noli Me Tangere and I looked like Madam Carmeling Crisologo or Gloria Macapagal Arroyo. Hahaha! There was even Maria Theresa Carlson’s lookalike, It was really fun. After dinner, Abner has asked some questons about me. I told him my father was Thai and that I haven’t met him yet. He asked me if i wanted him to look for my father since he has lots of Thai friends. He was really nice, they even offered me a ride home and sir Abner gave me his contact number in case I made up my mind and wanted to search for my father. He was a very nice man, and funny too.
December 18. we played Bingo during our Christmas Party and I really couldn’t push my luck because I won nothing. I nearly filled up my card in the blackout category but i still failed. I was never lucky with raffles, or any kind of game. I was even tasked to sing a song during the program and i told ma’am Avila that I couldn’t sing because I've really lost my voice. She suggested doing a lip sync! I was like, “Ma’am are you sure?!” but she still insisted and then I remembered that I have the copy of my song recorded at the studio. Mel even suggested that we show my music video during my performance. I had no choice but i was really tensed because it was my first time to lip sync! Haha, what if the music stopped??? But thank God the performance turned out fine. Except for some bukingan moments, Melquiades accidentally said “good luck sa pagli-lip sync” on air!!! Thank God nobody deemed to have noticed it... Hahaha! He even introduced me as an International Artist and the Medicine Students from Nepal and India believed it! They really thought I was a recording artist and they were even asking where can they buy “my album”. One guy was even asking for a copy of the song and the video. They all took pictures with me and each foreign student got the chance to shake hands with me. OMG. I plugged The Correspondents Vigan episode after my performance. I guess that was what even made them believe more that I am a celebrity because after the program, two students even asked me to sign an autograph for them! I even asked, are you sure! Hahaha. Wow, I felt really happy and blessed.
This is one happy moment. After that I went to the x mas party at Marinella. I was having some great time with ate Ate Rachel King, a very sweet and nice person. :) We even played games and i guessed one pinoy henyo game. Too bad, we were two seconds longer than the 4th team but i really think we should have won. hahah Peace out kuya ced! :) I really think i should be joining the simbang gabi because despite all the shitty things that have happened in my life, some people still remain to be standing here beside me and willing enough to lend me a helping hand or a crying shoulder. I feel really blessed. I may not have all the things in life but i know i have over a million reasons to be happy and thankful because God never failed.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

A New Perspective


I wanted to stay on the safer side this time.. I believe this is just the beginning of my learning process. To be able to sacrifice and free yourself from anything that could possibly hold you down is something which I figured out, I could actually do gradually. I wanted to love, but I couldn't give my heart to only one. I'd rather share the peaches and cream life has to offer with friends rather than sharing it with a man I couldn't even learn to connect with. Well, I guess it pays to be bitter sometimes. Life's experiences has taught me to be strong and to be a fighter There's no room for self-pity anymore. I'm having fun, I'm living my life and I would be happier this way. I'll search for myself first, and when the time comes that I'd be ready enough to share my heart with someone, I'll let you know. But for now, I'll still prepare myself and face the obstacles, whatever life may bring...